Hey fuckers and fuck-ettes, I think it's been a while since I've said important shit over here (if I have at all, really) and I have something important that I need to share that is obvious to lots especially those who know me well enough to talk to me over notes or Skype or whatever. So...for a little while, I started wearing make-up as you could probably tell by the selfies (ugh) I took. I enjoyed the process of putting it all on and feeling better about myself, then I had this overwhelming sense of confidence to do something that I've been wanting to do for a long time. Stemming from when I was really little, I've always wanted to be a girl. And with going to college where they'll literally accept anyone, I feel no pressure to keep acting like a boy when I really don't feel comfortable like that. So, after a little while of wearing make-up, I started wearing dresses over jeans and things like that because I was too scared to go all out at first. My friend bought me three dresses, and she was the one to talk me into outfitting myself properly. A few days after that (it was Friday pffhh) I came into college with this nice white and black dress over tights. And it felt pretty good, the people I saw gave me nice comments and I felt a lot more accepted. Recently, I've started buying my own clothes and have this nice purple jacket-kinda thing and it's big and comfy and it's great. A lot of people say nice things about it and in return it makes me really happy.
But this...this is the moment where I've figured out the name I want, and just about everything in general (Well I figured it out ages ago, now I'm just publicly saying it). I like to be called Autumn now, and I like to be referred to as a girl using female pronouns etc etc. I am also considering going all the way and getting a sex change and things like that, I know they come later and I am willing to wait but it's definitely going to be a thing when it can be. Having the right parts for who I want to be would complete the gap between me and the person I feel I am inside. And to be honest, I'm not expecting to get much reception over here since people don't really read the shit I post but I guess for those who are interested or still care you can read this little slight rant. But it's mostly just to make it more...public, I'd hate to bottle shit like this up.
In short, I'm now a girl (trans for those who want to know that technically I don't have the right bits yet), and my new name is Autumn.
Oh also still asexual, for those people who really think sexuality has an influence.