EDIT: I am reposting this for reasons of I actually want to keep it on my dA page thingy. If you want to know how I'm doing at the moment, I'm fucking horrible. Been getting really stressed, especially with the way I've been putting my own problems below everyone else's. Still though, I'm not going to give in and this is my fucking life goal now, just to help people. I want to keep this up top because sometimes I can post stupid shit, and that can get in the way of how serious I want to be. I just want you fuckers to know that if you need someone to vent to, a shoulder to cry on, or just a friend, I'm here. Love you fuckers.
Now, my first main point is that I want to change this world that is slowly killing itself. I want to make it a better place, as much as I possibly can. I want to help those that need it, and I want to do as people have done for me when I was down... I hope you can read Japanese, if you can't, my profile avatar reads; "suicide." Now, let's get down to the stuff I want to write to all of you fuckers about. First of all, I have attempted suicide 5 times in my life. I will explain those 5, right now.
First attempt, I was 11 and had no-one who cared for me. I cut my wrist profusely then watched myself bleed. I didn't die though, so I attempted suicide again by jumping out of a 2-story window. Third attempt, I already had marks on my wrist, but I cut myself again over 100 times... still didn't die, nor didn't need to go to the hospital. I ate pills in an attempt to OD, which was my fourth right after the third. Fifth? Attempted to drown myself in the bathtub... Didn't go as well as planned.
I hope it's obvious that I don't want to live in this fucked-up world. I decided I'd live through it to help others who have it worse than me, and have bigger problems than mine.
Anyways, my point in all of this is that I want to make this world a better place to live in, as much as possible. Sure, there'll be bullies and people who want to destroy everything around them, but you know what? Fuck them. I choose to keep standing no matter fucking what. Have a problem with that? You need to get out of my fucking face.
That's all I wanted to say. Anyone can join me in my quest to change, literally all I want to do is be there for people when they truly need it.
I also want to thank all of my watchers for supporting me in my writing and poetry and shit.
I love all of you fuckers, including those who don't know who I am.
Now, enjoy this list of people on dA I give a shit about.
If I missed anyone out below here, tell me please! And if you just want to be on the list, then you can be too!